I’ve been a citizen of the internet for the vast majority of my life. I remember my family first getting connected to the internet in 1998, when I would have been 8 years old. At time of writing, I am 34 years old, and have been showing my body off on the internet since about 2008. It’s something I genuinely love to do. I have an innate drive to showcase my sexuality for others to see. At times, I’ve indulged this desire deeply — recklessly, even — and at other times I’ve been more of a recluse. Still, my desire to have my sexuality witnessed is a constant.

Unfortunately, since about 2018, there have been increasingly fewer and fewer spaces where I find I can fully embody my showoff nature. Maybe you feel the same. We’ve seen the de-NSFWfication of Tumblr, the mass deletions of videos from the PornHub network (which included XTube, RedTube, and YouPorn), and OnlyFans threatening to do the same to its users before being convinced otherwise. More recently, we’ve seen NewTumbl disappear without notice. Personally, I’ve found myself adrift in regard to where I feel I can really show off. When I’m hours or days into an edging and cum denial streak and I feel like people just HAVE to see my stiff penis, full balls, and leaking precum, where do I post it?

So in 2018, just a few days before Tumblr officially deleted every naked body from its servers, I started a Twitter account and migrated my Tumblr blog over. Surprisingly, I ended up with roughly 11k followers pretty quickly. Eventually, I wanted to post longer videos of myself, but Twitter didn’t really allow for that. So, I figured I could leverage my following and start an OnlyFans. That worked modestly well for a couple of years, but managed to turn something I used to do just for fun into something that felt too much like a job, and not one that was ever gonna pay the bills. I started feeling like I couldn’t have sexual experiences of my own anymore. Mid-stroke, I’d suddenly think “I should record this because I need to post something.”. It was exhausting, and I learned that as long as there was the hope of monetization, my sexual pleasure was being held captive by my followers. Around the same time I was having this realization, a fascist bought Twitter, so it was a good time to jump ship anyway. I ditched my Twitter (X?) and my OnlyFans and looked for a new home.

So I traveled around the internet, searching for a place to display my cock. I dabbled in a lot of sites, some more than other, but none of them were quite a good fit for me. There was Reddit, which I discovered was impossible to post to without being racially fetishized. There was Chaturbate, which replicated the feeling of being at the whims of my followers, only far more immediately. Hard pass. More recently, there’s Bluesky, but I run into the same issue as with Twitter as they only allow 30 second videos on their platform. All of the remaining tube sites feel overly pornified for my sharing tastes. Not to say that what I make is any less porn than the porn I’m talking about. My issue is that there are potentially harmful and dehumanizing tropes and stereotypes baked directly into the user experience of sites like XHamster and XVideos. So again, WHERE DO I POST????

Most consistently, I’ve maintained a presence on Bateworld, a site that’s been in my life for several years. I quite enjoy the platform overall, and have met a good handful of friends there. It holds a special place in my heart for introducing me to batordom proper. Unfortunately, I still run into issues, the most obvious of them being the focus on masturbation only. The sex I have with others isn’t always just masturbatory, and as a result, I have documented plenty of penetrative oral and anal sex that will never find a home on Bateworld. So when I’ve recorded a man lovingly and desperately feeding himself on my dickshaft, or another man opening his hole to take me in deep, where does it go?

The other problems I run into with Bateworld have to do with money. I can’t say I’m a fan of Bateworld’s recent (at least in my experience) push towards advertisement and merchandising. I get it. A site’s gotta make money. I just don’t like being advertised to in general, and it feels like it’s happening more overtly lately. The most recent thing that rubbed me the wrong way is the PornHub style intro they’ve recently attached to the beginning of every video. I already know what site I’m on. I’m even paying for it. I guess it’s not necessarily advertising, but it’s certainly marketing.

Further, I’m not a fan of their user content being behind a paywall, at least not when it’s pure profit for the site. One must be a paying member to unlock any video content or features. This includes both uploading and viewing. I understand the business model, and it’s honestly fine. However, they’re making money off of me so that I can post my videos, and not only do I not get something for that, others are charged money to access something of mine that I’d rather give freely. I’ve been a paying member for years, but lately I think I’d rather save my money.

Will that stop me from logging into Bateworld? Fuck no!

Will it keep me from hosting my videos on their site? Yeah, probably.

So, in the combined spirit of the free internet and cultivated lust, here I am, making a blog dedicated to my sex. It’ll serve as my personal pornographic portfolio, comfortably hosted somewhere that won’t randomly change their mind one day. Ideally, there’ll be no more picking up and moving. It cost me a little money, but it feels a bit more like home.

With all that said, I invite you to look deeply at me; my body, my cock, my sex. Linger a while.

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